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Confessions of a "Ex KindnessWhore" - CAUTION!! FEAR NOTHING BUT FEAR

Excerpts from my blog::

I was the Micheal Jordan of *kindness whoring.

My misguided attempts had become a beast in it's own right.

Contemplating my next move like a skilled chess player, I'd over-stack my plate like a starved peasant girl.

I, patiently clung to his every word. He, never expected to respect me.

What started out as a simple plan to win him over, suddenly became a necessary function, long after he and my dignity faded away.

I posed a question to myself I never intended to answer quite the way I did. "Why do I accept this kind of torture in my life?" I thought.

It wasn't stupidity that kept me in bondage for forty- plus years, it was my inner child's massive fear of what she couldn't have.

What I had to realize was, I've survived more mind-numbing crises' by the time I was16, than most people do in a life time. Clearly I was no punk.

Classic *"Kindness Whore Itis"

*( Aimlessly pouring out kindness to family and friends in a boundless attempt to PLEASE , PLEASE , PLEASE AT ALL COST. Willingly gambling vital self-esteem and allowing self to be mercilessly taken advantage of until psychologically, emotionally, and spiritually drained).

Mind you, this behavior is initially done with the best of intentions.

Welcome:

Kindness expressed in

any form but truth not

deemed of value in the mind of the recipient.©2009

Cherylann

My intention is to inspire at least one person who aspires to embrace their fears and move past it.

To encourage personal and spiritual growth through awareness, healing & positive action.

As a Women I nourish my children to go out into the world, as a Wife I effortlessly care for family and friends, as a Mother I make a way out of no way, and as a Grandmother I guide a generation to victory, so tell me... why is it difficult for me to show kindness to myself?